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Well the Phillies finally beat the Rays in the World Series. I am disappointed. I the team that was good enough to beat my Red Sox to win. Oh well, I guess you can't have everything. Haha. Life is pretty boring right now and that's probably a good thing. I just finished my observation rotation at the middle school and so next week I start the elementary rotation. Yikes! Kids that little make me very nervous. It takes a certain kind of person to teach that age group. I know it's definitely not for me. I really do like the middle school age. They aren't complete buttheads yet. School is over in like 6 weeks! My brother graduates this semester up in Boston, possibly. He likes to keep things a mystery and not inform his family of anything....seriously...nada. It's weird to me how different we have become. For the longest time I looked up to my brother and would stand behind most of his decisions. I love my brother but I am not a member of his fan club. It's sad really. I would like to have a relationship with him but he never responds to anything I send him. Travis is doing a good job in the brother role though. He's kinda an asshole from time to time but who isn't? I wouldn't like it any other way. Like I said my life is pretty boring right now.

Thieves!!!!

Today I went to target to buy some sports bras and noticed that they had a bunch of clothes on clearance! Yay! So I went over there and started looking at clothes and while looking at a cute top, I set my wallet down, turned around to look at the rack behind me and when I turned back around, guess what boys and girls....my wallet was already gone. Vanished! My wallet which held my plastic life-line, drivers licence, student id, bank cards, gas cards, and most important, my social security card. Happy Sunday! I wandered around looking for it thinking maybe it fell on the floor and I was also looking at every person I crossed to see if I could tell if they had my wallet. Of course I did not find it and no one had turned it in. I guess I have some bad karma going on right now. Im not sure why though. I found a wallet once, in the middle of a street in Denton. I contacted the girl on myspace and got her wallet back to her the next day. Why can't I be so lucky??? GRRRRR. This makes me very angry. If you need money that bad, just ask me. I'm finished complaining now. Gotta go have dinner with my Pops.

A little confusion

So in my first post I stated how I knew I wasn't ready for kids. I did not mean to imply that I was prego. I am not. Just thought I might clear that up. But while I am on this subject, it seems that everyone I grew up with is getting married and/or having kids. There was a core group of girls that I played softball with from February to November for years and almost all of them are married. I am also a year older than this group of girls. I often wonder if I am running behind or if they are just ahead of the game. Some days I think they are crazy to get married and 20, 21, or 22. Other days I am jelous that they have "started their lives" and I am still living like a poor college student.

Matt and I have been dating for about a year and a half so the topic of marriage has come up on multiple occasions and we are both in agreement that we want to do it, just not now. After this school year he will probably move in with me since Travis has his eye's set on Dallas after graduation. We have talked about it and we both think it would be a responsible decision for us. We are both products of divorce so we want to avoid that at all costs. I firmly believe that you can love someone with all your heart but they might not be the right person for you.

He said yes when I proposed this living situation to him but then his next response was what I was thinking. What will our families think? I know that most of my family is opposed to "living in sin" by the things they said about my brother living with his girlfriend(s). He has done this on a few occasions. I am sure Matt's family will have similar views.

He has semi-conservative views while mine are fairly liberal. Our families however are both in the strongly-to-semi conservative category and this has to due with their strong ties to the church. I love that they have these ties because they wouldn't be the people they are with out God in their lives. I am the same way. God is in my life just as much as theirs, but I just interpret his teaching differently. I have been turned-off by every church I have ever attended except for this non-denominational church that my softball coach attended. This has probably helped spawn my "crazy" liberal views. Anyway, Matt and I are most likely going to live together before we get married and I am terrified of telling my family about it. I guess in some ways I still see my self as my mom and dad's little girl and I don't want to upset them.

Im not really sure what this post has turned in to and I am not sure what my point is. Oh well, I guess that's life. One more sad note, the Tampa Bay Rays killed my Red Sox again tonight 13-4. As long as we follow the patterns of our last two ALCS's, we should win the last three games...I hope. As long as Manny Rameriez, Joe Torre, and the Dodgers don't make it to the world series then I will be okay. GO SOX!!!

I Hate Genetics!!!

The title tells it all. Genetics may sound like an interesting class, but it's not. Why oh why must the lecture course and lab course decide to have their exams on the same day???

Busy Day

So this is my first blog on here. Today I went to my cousin's bridal shower and it was pretty fun. There were so many people there that I didn't know so I was a little nervous. Well, Allison got a lot of really cool stuff. It makes me want to have a bridal shower...haha...maybe in a couple years. She seems happy and that's what is important. After the shower I had to drive an hour back to Denton to go to work, fun stuff. I am so unbelievably over working at the Olive Garden but it pays the bills right now so what can I do? It is Texas-OU weekend so we are busier than normal so I figured I would make a good amount of money. Wrong. I know the economy is bad and blah blah blah, but if you have enough money to go out to eat, then you should have enough money to tip your server more than 10%. Seriously. And if you have enough money to sit at the bar and have a drink before your meal, then you most certainly can tip your bartender. It is just bad karma if you don't tip your bartender. I don't understand people lately. I made your group 7 different drinks, your bill was over 40 dollars and you stiff me?!? I can't wait to finish school in May and get a job where my salary doesn't depend on how frugal a person is feeling that day. I shall get off my soap box now.

I finally left work around 12:30, called Matt to tell him good night because I was "too sleepy" to hang out. Well, as we can see it is after 2 and I am still wide awake. I think I am in that too tired to sleep state.

Roxy, my dog, keeps on barking at her reflection in the window. I am pretty sure she has a few screws missing up there but I love her anyway. She's my buddy. She also let's me know I'm not ready for kids anytime soon. I know I'm about to be 24 and a lot of people start having kids then but if I get worn out taking care of a dog.....

On a sad note, the Red Sox lost today and I'm pretty sure it's because I was not watching them. Don't worry Sox fans, I'm off on Monday so we should get back on track.

Goodnight!